wednesday
july. the slice is due in september and i can now count the intervening months on one hand with fingers left over, which is not the flex the sea seems to think it is.
Marginalia issue is late again. it's always late. i keep rereading the draft looking for the finished version that already exists somewhere, and it does not exist — you have to make the version, nobody warns you that you have to make it. the draft is On Rereading, and the irony of a late newsletter about rereading being stuck because i won't stop rereading it is not lost on me. filed under Fallow and feral.
dropped roll 11 at the lab. two rolls behind on scanning now. the darkroom co-op emailed about the summer schedule and i archived it, which is a verb i use for "felt a feeling and hid it."
good hour on the game though. The Bissett Shore getting more specific — named a cove after a word in Halina's almanac i can only half-read. recording a thing by mishearing it is still recording it. Recording a disappearing thing.
- call mama
- send the wayfinding synthesis (rolled from monday. from last monday.)
- finish the Marginalia draft OR admit it isn't the next issue and let it rest
- scan rolls 09 + 10
reflections
attention as love, sure — but also attention as the only apology i know how to make to the people i've stopped calling. hi. Attention as love.